the edge, it’s a word i assume fit to describe a situation when life’s start to lose it’s excitement at the maxxx.

how come?
it’s another Final Test session, i’ve been through this several times already (no, i’m not proud ). it’s not the test that brings me to the edge, it’s more the loneliness, since (almost) everybody are going home beetween test days, so orange is practically empty.

what to do now?
interesting, that’s what i’m trying to find out : what should i do in this spare(st of) time?
should i go home? should i visit families and colleagues?

what do you want to do?
you know what, i actually want to go somewhere no people know me, no familiar faces, but still there is civilization.

abroad?
something like that, yes. it would be nice to go somewhere abroad, somewhere people speak the language i don’t understand, somewhere far away, somewhere people meet on the street and greet each other, that would be some place wouldn’t it. i mean going to Bandung or somewhere in Java/Bali/Sumatra will not solve the edge, i mean, there’s so many people i know there. while going to some other island in Indonesia, just not the thing.

really?
actually i’ve been wondering about this everytime the edge comes. and i actually did once, i went to Bandung (that time i don’t know too many people there), just walk the streets, doing (stupid) things, and it was great, i went for 3 weeks, and when i came back i felt livelier.

any particular places in mind?
well, neighbour countries like Singapore and may be Malaysia, or Australia are good places to start, and anywhere in Japan too.
and after that some countries in Europe will be a good destination, some villages in Italy, Spain, England, France (somewhere not Paris, London, Milan, Madrid, those are common destination).
next, may be Manhattan, where i read is a great place.

get a job and stay there?
no, well, not yet, not right now anyway, i still have so many things to do here in Indonesia.

when? now?
i’d love to, there is this problem (that most people have too) : it’s not currently financially feasible.

oh God…
that’s right, oh God! that’s… well, that’s, that should wait… for now.

so this post is about dream of going places?
sort of, yes.

oh no?
yes indeed! and no, not a totally unreachable dream now, it’s possible, sometime in the future, well, if God grant me the permission that is.

feasible alternatives?
of course, that is exploring Depok or Jakarta on foot!.

yeah right.. sounds stupid, crazy and idiot
yes indeed! it’d be nice.

so, the alternatives start now, right?
what? sorry, i think i’m getting sleepy… time to save the post, wrap it up and back to the real world.