i do not know what is wrong with me (or the world, though unlikely).
i am in a state of losing trust to some of my friends.
seeing as i hold too firm to my idealism, or it doesn’t seem like some people i know (and i expected them to be idealists) are even holding to theirs at all.
either way, the combination of those two confuses me.
is it because i get too close too them, that i discover these things.
should i just do it like before, not getting too close to anyone… - but wouldn’t that just make the things (i think are problems) invisible for me, yet it’s still there anyway.
do they really lose their grip on theirs?

gue jadi ngebalik-balik buku “Being Happy” (by Andrew Matthews) lagi,

Kita menentukan citra diri kita sendiri. Kita menentukan nilai diri kita dan menentukan seberapa besar kebahagiaan yang kita inginkan.

eh dah jam 4, mo brenang nih, pada ngajakin, hihih.

This is an interesting view about why would an Indonesian write in English,
“Why I Write In English” @ Jennie S. Bev typepad blog.

I guess I feel the same thing as to why I sometimes write in English, even if rarely full-English, but couldn’t really answer when someone ask me why, not until I read the entry.

Here’s a quote from the entry :

I prefer to be seen as an equal conversation partner, which cannot be achieved if speaking certain Asian languages

I’ve been looking for the words to describe it, and “equal conversation partner” fits perfectly.
I mean, you can write without the need to worry that someone older or younger consider you to be rude or dictating because of the word being used to address them.